Thankxaton TLW ..U made my day..:):):D

Here's something that I came across that struck a chord somewhere deep down...


A Mother's Prayer

I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her to a place
Give her faith so she'll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe



This is something that is awfully true....very very true...






If I could
I'd protect you from the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage in a world of compromise
Yes, I would







If I could
I would teach you all the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could
I would try to shield your innocence from time
But the part of life I gave you isn't mine
I've watched you grow
So I could let you go

If I could
I would help you make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would
If I could

If I live
In a time and place where you don't want to be
You don't have to walk along this road with me
My yesterday
Won't have to be your way

If I knew
I'd have tried to change the world I brought you to
And there isn't very much that I can do
But I would
If I could...
Oh baby... mummy wants to protect you
And help my baby through the hungry years
It's part of me
And if you ever... ever need
Sad shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there... I'll be there
I didn't change your world
But I would
If I Could!
Celine Dion - If I Could Lyrics

Live Journal today...Dec 07,2005

08:00 hrs : Amma's energy level :100 %

I try hard to pull open my eyes...I feel so so tired but there is somebody pulling at my shirt..:):) Can hear goo goo gaa gaa talk..I turn around and see my little one ..trying her best to play with my shirt..and she gives me the best smile I have ever seen. Yes..its time to pull myself out of my bed.... or Could I afford just 10 minutes more..wouldn't she just go on with her game of tugging amma's shirt..would she really notice that I had just woken up...oops..too late..she definitely knows amma's up..I hear a tiny fart ..she decides its TOILET time for her ...tats how we start our day...first things first...after official clean up followed by 15minutes of sucking hard,getting her 100 ml morning drink...we are ready to face the dayHmm...a cup of hot steaming coffee sounds like a great idea to kick start my day as well.I walk to the kitchen and I can already hear somebody missing me back in the bedroom. Before the tiny sobs grow louder, I return,deciding to carry her in the pouch and make my coffee with a 4 month old perched in my arms.Have u ever noticed how tough it is to make coffee with an infant stuck in between you and the coffee maker??Now drinking it is even tougher coz all that she wants is a sip and tired of keeping her off my mug, I decide to call it quits and pour off my coffee into the sink. There goes my jump start into a great morning with a cup of strong coffee..Its play time for her ..so amma and lil one gonna play with doggie,duckie,bunny,Mr.Rattler and one bottle of water. Thats yet another tip...infants are often fascinated by simple things in life ...a bottle full of water might turn out to be the best toy they have ever seen...


9:15 am :
Amma's Energy level : 98%
We are still playing..I must tell you this is the best part...just to hear a squeal of delight when u rub your nose on her belly...see her play with your fingers..touching your cheeks...poking your eyes in between..putting her tiny fists into your mouth..smiling at you as she explores your face...go "weeeeeee..."and then "boooooo..."as doggie and duckie come into the scene...I can sing to her and dance with her..I will not be judged for my skills at both ...I have a die hard admirer and this does feel really good...Am on top of the world kind of feeling..When I look at her...hear her cooing..I just wish I could freeze time...Wish this would last forever..I just don't want her to grow up..




9:30 am :
Amma's energy level : 85%
Amma's decided its time for bath...we take out our stuff..the mat..the massaging oil..the tub ..the soft wash..the towels..new dress for today..new diapers..lotion..nappy rash oil..all this has to be arranged by a rushing amma coz now lil one is so excited about her bath that she can't be left alone on the bed for too long..the squealing delight might just roll over and fall off...now we are ready for the next show..Off go the clothes..its lots of songs from amma and 1 hour of massage ...




Now its a 15 minutes bath...followed by 10 minutes of splashing in the water...10 minutes of dressing up ( she's already Miss Vanity Fair..loves it when lotion is rubbed on..) 10 minutes of whining...2 minutes of crying...5 minutes of brrrrrrr..( bus oodikkal with a lot of spit as well )...Amma has to keep going fast...put on the diaper and her romper before the mouth opens wide to cry..its over even before she knew what was to happen..once the commotion is done...its a cool half an hour of feeding..while the sweet soul suckles and sleeps ( i always wonder how she does both at the same time..) Amma is scheduling her work..if lil one sleeps for 30 minutes ..then I can make the Hot prawn curry..if its just 10 minutes..then those poor prawns would just have to be grilled..But u never know ,if i get lucky and she sleeps for an hour..I could zap up the beetroot carrot mezhukkuparatti..muringakka theeyal and maybe prawn roast..:):) mmm all that sounds like heaven..and Maybe if she sleeps for 2 hours..could finish off the laundry..and maybe tidy the place...and what if she sleeps for 2 and a half hours...my oh my...I could even brush my teeth..go to the loo..have my bath..Thats would be the ultimate paradise ...a half an hour more..I could get my hands on a cup of coffee..have my breakfast..and sit back and read the papers..that would be nirvana..:):) But first..the little darling has to stop feeding and slip off into deep sleep...I have to carefully pull myself away from her..silently..without letting her know...a tiny quiver of the sheet might wake her up..this calls for real patience and practice..but first she has to sleep...sleep darling..sleep...sleep...sleep before amma slips into deep sleep herself...

Its just been 3..or 4 days ... The Lost Wanderer told me about it ...and IT definitely was a surprising find..

All my dearest friends from yesteryears...have hooked onto something they call "Blogging"...All of them(sumz,bing,potato,max and of course the wanderer himself ) seem to be living in a totally different world..one I lost touch with a long time back..They seem to be frozen in time..still where I left them..sharing those meaningless discussions, the nonsensical jokes,living in those fun filled days when all that troubles you is loneliness and boredom or at times a cartload of noisy friends who would turn up just when you want some time to yourself and then refuse to move their "butts" off your couch of solitude....ouch..Mommies shouldn't be using chee chee language..Well..thats who I am today..."a fresh new first time mommy"




Am still learning the tricks of the trade ..I was once a Pro at spending hours and hours in LifeStlye (TTK Road,chennai) trying on trousers,shirts,shoes,skirts and any other piece of garment ever fashioned to adorn the female anatomy and eventually calling it 'a wrap' by buying a white shirt which has to be worn the next day with those icy blue jeans picked up the previous week..( nostalgic sumz??) What a delightful way to spend time and money..when one has plenty of both at one's disposal..one not knows wat one does..or shops..:):)Well cutting short the crap about yesterdays spent ....lets zoom into the todays being lived...Life as a first time mommy.......a lot to be said...but very little time......24 hours is too short to call it a DAY..:)!!I really really wish...God would put in an hour or two more into a day....there's so much more to be done...baby laundery to be washed...dry clothes to be brought in..washed and dried clothes to be ironed..diapers to be thrown out...omigosh..have to clean the feeding bottles and rest of the paraphernalia and then wash them again in hot water..have to feed the birds ( we have a couple..actually 5 lovebirds here..) ..pick up the rattler..the duckie..the bunny..the doggie..and all those stuffed toys from the floor and stuff them back into the shelf...roll her cot back into its place...then there's cooking and cleaning and shopping ...and all thats got to be done before she wakes up...cause once she has woken up...I find myself facing yet another pile of dirty nappies ,rompers and baby t-shirts... Yes..life's definitely been hectic since my Little Princess...the apple of my eyes...my little butterfly..flew right into my life...I didnt know what I was getting into until I was neck deep in it...but right now..at the end of the day...at this unearthly hour ...when I walked upto her cot to check on her..and found my little angel ..sleeping adorably..those big eyes tightly shut..fluttering as she dreams...those soft cheeks...those chubby fists ..those tiny feet propped up on her pillow..that tiny tummy gently moving up and down...those gentle breaths..those tiny red lips half open as if she is about to whisper " Amma I love you.."..I bend down and kiss my darling and I look at her ...call it a DAY..its simply been a fulfilling day...:) Let me go and snuggle next to her......smell the baby smell..touch her delicate skin..and feel her tiny arms hug me tight..afterall..to her I am now Amma...the one who can make any boo boo go with a kiss...I am magical guys....I am different from what I was...And I love the difference that a lil soul has brought to my life...





And this is for you...my dearest one...


Sun is creeping down
Behind the hill
Everything is calm
Everything is still

So baby close your eyes
And rest your weary mind
Let me hold you close I'll sing you this lullaby

Let your worries go
You fall asleep
Think of nothing more
Memories will keep

Your dreams will turn to gold
And you will waken fine
Then you'll hold a smile all day from this lullaby

Maybe somewhere in the silence
You will wake and you're alone
Just call out and I'll be there

Even when I'm gone
Each day will end
So I'll say 'goodnight'
'Til we meet again

Now baby close your eyes
And rest your weary mind
I'll let you know the joy you bring
You this lullaby


Celine Dion - Baby Close Your Eyes